Baby Wonders

It is so amazing to see the wonder in a child's eyes.  I love to watch my little one just taking it all in.  Everything captivates her attention!  It can be something as simple as a kitchen light or a spinning fan.  We don't think anything of these things as adults, but to a baby, this is fascinating stuff!  And, all of the baby babble that follows is just adorable.  Babies don't hold back!  They let us know what they're thinking even if we can't always understand them.  I love how my little one just babbles away.  She tells it like it is!!  Oh how I wish I could do that on a daily basis.  Somehow, I don't think that would be acceptable in the adult world.  For now, I will live vicariously through her!

Change

It has been quite some time since my last post.  It has also been quite some time since I last scrapbooked.  My life got a bit crazy and I decided to take a break from things.  During that time, I had another child and life got even crazier!  After she was 3 months old, I went back to work and life was in full blown chaos.  Things have not calmed down but I'm trying to get back into some creative things.  Oh, I also forgot to mention that we moved to a new house during all this chaos but we still own our other house.  We will hopefully be selling the old house soon.  We created a lot of great memories in that old house.  It was our first house.  We had three greyhounds and two children over the years in that house.

I have decided that even if I don't have time to create because of all the chaos in my life, I still need to document the important things that are happening.  I need to just be able to let it all out when need be.  It doesn't matter if I'm the only one reading it.  I need to do this because I want to remember these things that are truly important to me -- the things that will take my breath away when I think back to them.  The things that bring tears to my eyes when I remember.  Or if I find myself in the situation that I can't remember anymore, my kids will be able to show me this.  And, maybe, just maybe I'll remember all the things that made me happy.

I am rethinking what is really important to me in this life because at the end of the day, I do not want to be remembered as the grouchy, overstressed, overstretched mom.  I had a friend with a mother that was constantly yelling.  It made me nervous!  I can understand why she was that way now that I'm an adult with responsibilities, but I don't want to be that way.  That is not how I want my kids or their friends to remember me.  Right now, I don't have much time to myself.  That is part of my problem.  It feels like someone always wants something from me.  I am trying to take back my Fridays since it is my day off from work.  Hopefully, this will help me to feel like I exist as a person again until I get to take more time for myself.  And, that time will be soon....